Out of My Life

Listenin to an instrumental, and just started writing

I let myself fall into a lie
I let my walls come down
I let myself smile into a lie
I let my walls come down
No matter how I try I dont know why
You are so far away
I don't know why
You're just so far away

I'm Mr Nice guy, or I use to be
Now I try not to act so stupidly
Furiously, I let my anger out
And as these words come out my mouth

I doubt that I'll ever be the same
And I'm wondering now who's to blame
My feelings came, and lied to me
Claming that this will all end happily

I'm mad at me, but not at you
But you're the one who tore me in two
I'm mad at me, cuz I fell for you
And I thought that my feelings were actually true

I'm Mr Nice guy, well not anymore
Cuz he's dead now, lying on the floor
I shot him, too many times
Now he'll never lie to my mind

I let myself fall into a lie
I let my walls come down
I let myself smile into a lie
I let my walls come down
No matter how I try I dont know why
You are so far away
I don't know why
You're just so far away

So who am I now? If I'm not nice
Wanna be my friend? Better think twice
I'm not nice, at least not anymore
And if you think I am, walk out that door

Cuz I'll prove you wrong if you ever say I am
And I'm not doing so just because I can
I don't want to be nice ever again
Like how I never want to fall in love again

And again I'm here, hurting too much
Hating the fact that I love you too much
To make it worse, I'm fine with all this
Shouldn't I hate you for what you did?

God forbid, I ever see you once more
Cuz I think I'll act like how I did before
You took my heart, I don't want it back
Cuz I'm through with emotions and all of that