Just listening to some old songs.
Takes me back to a couple years back.
Funny how every song holds a certain memory with it.
I guess that helps, cuz I don't try remembering some things.
Really helps when you need to write something.
EDIT.
What she said really took me back to the days where I'd just write all day.
miss sto domingo says (3:20 AM):
Aww I miss your stories!
Friday, October 30, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Yupp.
This year's been hard,
But at least I know what I am.
And I know where I stand.
I can't say that it's been easy.
But I wouldn't trade what I've been through
Because it's those hardships
That's taken me here.
But at least I know what I am.
And I know where I stand.
I can't say that it's been easy.
But I wouldn't trade what I've been through
Because it's those hardships
That's taken me here.
Write, bitch, right?
The greatest work of art is the mind.
And like all great works of art, understading them is one of the hardest things to do.
Even trying to understand your own mind.
Trying to unravel the hidden passageways within your brain.
Trying to unlock your potential through opening your mind.
Putting myself through the toughest situations, just so that I can better understand the human mind.
My, oh my, what have I done?
I'm making improvements but it's in the wrong field.
I hope tommorow will brighten my mind.
God knows it's been gloomy inside there.
Well, time to use this thinking into better use.
Time to continue Aaron's life story.
Yessuh, I think it's been a while.
And like all great works of art, understading them is one of the hardest things to do.
Even trying to understand your own mind.
Trying to unravel the hidden passageways within your brain.
Trying to unlock your potential through opening your mind.
Putting myself through the toughest situations, just so that I can better understand the human mind.
My, oh my, what have I done?
I'm making improvements but it's in the wrong field.
I hope tommorow will brighten my mind.
God knows it's been gloomy inside there.
Well, time to use this thinking into better use.
Time to continue Aaron's life story.
Yessuh, I think it's been a while.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
Hm.
I'm starting to not like what's going on.
Actually, I never did.
But it seems like I just can't get past it.
I'm trying,
I really am,
and I'm starting to hate myself everytime I fail.
It's really hard,
I'm trying to hold on.
I'm trying to pull myself back up.
I'm trying to put myself together again.
I thought I already overcame this entire situation.
I guess not, it was only a temporary fix.
I need to figure this out on my own, again.
I just need to change everything.
Everything has to change.
Everything.
Actually, I never did.
But it seems like I just can't get past it.
I'm trying,
I really am,
and I'm starting to hate myself everytime I fail.
It's really hard,
I'm trying to hold on.
I'm trying to pull myself back up.
I'm trying to put myself together again.
I thought I already overcame this entire situation.
I guess not, it was only a temporary fix.
I need to figure this out on my own, again.
I just need to change everything.
Everything has to change.
Everything.
Friday, October 16, 2009
Thursday, October 15, 2009
I Give Up.
Not even going to explain.
Cuz you won't understand.
You'll tell me shit that I already know.
You're gonna make me feel worse.
You're not helping.
So fuck off.
Fuck it.
I give up.
See you never.
Cuz you won't understand.
You'll tell me shit that I already know.
You're gonna make me feel worse.
You're not helping.
So fuck off.
Fuck it.
I give up.
See you never.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
What Motivates You?
Is it family? Friends? Proving someone wrong?
Whatever motivates you, doesn't motivate me. Because we're different people. So stop trying to use "prove me wrong," as a way to motivate me. I will not go out of my way to change how you think about me, in fact, I don't give a fuck what you think about me.
But I got my motivation, and sometimes, I just forget about them. So FUCK OFF, and give me time to remember.
With that said, I've got an essay to finish, Macbeth to finish reading and an ISU to continue.
Just leave me the fuck alone.
Whatever motivates you, doesn't motivate me. Because we're different people. So stop trying to use "prove me wrong," as a way to motivate me. I will not go out of my way to change how you think about me, in fact, I don't give a fuck what you think about me.
But I got my motivation, and sometimes, I just forget about them. So FUCK OFF, and give me time to remember.
With that said, I've got an essay to finish, Macbeth to finish reading and an ISU to continue.
Just leave me the fuck alone.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Plans.
So, I went to the weathernetwork and this was the first thing I saw on their homepage.
Weather Warning
Frost warning for City of Toronto
And it's only October! Can you see the oddness in that weather warning? We've experienced the worst of weathers we can possibly imagine. Not as worse as my fellow Filipinos back home, please pray for them, but it's insane! We've had thunderstorms, tornados, hail, crazy wind, lightning, thunder, and now a frost warning?! All before November?!
Wow, total loaft on this blogpost. Draft autosaved at 1:45 AM, it's currently 2:48AM. Good job youtube. LOL
Okay, so aside from my weather rant, I think this year, what's left of `09, and `10 will be the year when I'll be pushing towards producing what I've wanted. `09 was sort of the thinking process, confirming this is what I really want, and setting up some connections for certain things, don't worry, none of them are illegal. As you know, photography is my passion and my fam from egotistic productions have helped me fuel that for the past year. Ever since Feb 01, I've been learning and hopefully improving in becoming one of the upcoming local photographers. I'm trying to make it big you guys. Become a famous photographer, a photographer at some of the high end fashion scenes, become an overseas journalist or one of my biggest hope is that I'll be taking pictures for National Geographic and things like that. With that said, I'm going to make `10 (it sounds so weird when you read ten, rather than oh nine) the biggest move from local photographer to a region photographer. Work my way out of high school, as I hope that this is going to be my last year in high school, and get into an art school for applied photography so I can work towards getting my bachelors/masters in art & photography. Even if I don't get accepted towards the program I wish to get into, I will not give up photography. It's my passion, I can't let what I love to do go. Even writing's still a part of my life, though not so much creative writing. But blogging still counts as a way to show my love for english. Excuse my spelling and bad grammar. I do have backup choices if fate doesn't hand over photography as soon as I wish it to. Sociology, Psychology, Anthropology, Philosophy are also areas that I'm looking into.
Again, total blankness on this post, five minutes only this time haha.
With all that said, I think I'm going to post on the Egotistic Productions site. Okay, continue the read at
http://egotisticproductions.blogspot.com/
Hope to see you there!
Weather Warning
Frost warning for City of Toronto
And it's only October! Can you see the oddness in that weather warning? We've experienced the worst of weathers we can possibly imagine. Not as worse as my fellow Filipinos back home, please pray for them, but it's insane! We've had thunderstorms, tornados, hail, crazy wind, lightning, thunder, and now a frost warning?! All before November?!
Wow, total loaft on this blogpost. Draft autosaved at 1:45 AM, it's currently 2:48AM. Good job youtube. LOL
Okay, so aside from my weather rant, I think this year, what's left of `09, and `10 will be the year when I'll be pushing towards producing what I've wanted. `09 was sort of the thinking process, confirming this is what I really want, and setting up some connections for certain things, don't worry, none of them are illegal. As you know, photography is my passion and my fam from egotistic productions have helped me fuel that for the past year. Ever since Feb 01, I've been learning and hopefully improving in becoming one of the upcoming local photographers. I'm trying to make it big you guys. Become a famous photographer, a photographer at some of the high end fashion scenes, become an overseas journalist or one of my biggest hope is that I'll be taking pictures for National Geographic and things like that. With that said, I'm going to make `10 (it sounds so weird when you read ten, rather than oh nine) the biggest move from local photographer to a region photographer. Work my way out of high school, as I hope that this is going to be my last year in high school, and get into an art school for applied photography so I can work towards getting my bachelors/masters in art & photography. Even if I don't get accepted towards the program I wish to get into, I will not give up photography. It's my passion, I can't let what I love to do go. Even writing's still a part of my life, though not so much creative writing. But blogging still counts as a way to show my love for english. Excuse my spelling and bad grammar. I do have backup choices if fate doesn't hand over photography as soon as I wish it to. Sociology, Psychology, Anthropology, Philosophy are also areas that I'm looking into.
Again, total blankness on this post, five minutes only this time haha.
With all that said, I think I'm going to post on the Egotistic Productions site. Okay, continue the read at
http://egotisticproductions.blogspot.com/
Hope to see you there!
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Insight.
So Aaron Cruz is like my fictional character in my story. When I write, I feel like the stories I weave are real. Therefore, in my mind, Aaron Cruz exists. Am I crazy? Partially. I prefer to be categorized as different, unique, a new breed of writing. Anyways.
The more we go into this, the less we talk. I'm starting to feel like you were right all along and trying to prove you wrong would just end up in me falling flat on my face. So, I'll let the world decide our fate.
Hm, what else.
Go to sleep Kim Liban!
I'm awkward around girls!
LOL hella random.
I'm in need of some sociological insight into certain kinds of people, psychological and anthropological wise too.
Oh, btw, Waking Up is under construction in a sense of it WILL BECOME A SHORT FILM :)
Iris needs to be let out real soon.
and I'm hoping to get some of my creativity let out soon
And last but not least. Aaron Cruz, you're a slick character. Stop hiding from me, I must tell your story.
As an author, my characters come to life. But does that make me crazy, to refer to them as real people?
Okay, it's decided. If I don't get into photography, I'm getting into either Social Worker, Anthropologist, Psycologist, or Sociologist. Done deal !
The mind is the greatest work of art in the history of the universe.
Kay, goodnight.
Sweet dreams,
Kim Liban
Cuz I know you're reading this. LOL
The more we go into this, the less we talk. I'm starting to feel like you were right all along and trying to prove you wrong would just end up in me falling flat on my face. So, I'll let the world decide our fate.
Hm, what else.
Go to sleep Kim Liban!
I'm awkward around girls!
LOL hella random.
I'm in need of some sociological insight into certain kinds of people, psychological and anthropological wise too.
Oh, btw, Waking Up is under construction in a sense of it WILL BECOME A SHORT FILM :)
Iris needs to be let out real soon.
and I'm hoping to get some of my creativity let out soon
And last but not least. Aaron Cruz, you're a slick character. Stop hiding from me, I must tell your story.
As an author, my characters come to life. But does that make me crazy, to refer to them as real people?
Okay, it's decided. If I don't get into photography, I'm getting into either Social Worker, Anthropologist, Psycologist, or Sociologist. Done deal !
The mind is the greatest work of art in the history of the universe.
Kay, goodnight.
Sweet dreams,
Kim Liban
Cuz I know you're reading this. LOL
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Sigh.
I'm stressed. So I figure I'd let some of that out through this. Seeing as nothing else has remotely worked. Okay, let's start off with school. Nothing's the problem, everything's going good, for once. Trying to keep it like that but I'm not sure if it'll stay like that for long. I've been stressed, and I took a day off today to relax and take some time for myself. I'm starting to slowly walk back into that state where I was six months ago.
As you may or may not know, I just turned eighteen almost a month ago. As great as it is, finally being able to buy lottery and being considered legal, it really isn't that much different. I feel the stress more and I think I'm just suppose to bear with it and do what I can. No more complaining, asking for help, because I'm eighteen. I gotta hold my own, because the future only gets harder. I'm glad for those who are there for me, never going to take them for granted. And with that said, I couldn't have asked for better friends or family. These past eighteen years have been nothing but a great learning experience and I'm blessed to have such wonderful people surrounding me. Thanks.
I think I'm more self aware now. I think... I'm going through more than I realize. But it's good to know I have people to count on.
I think...he's catching feelings for her. If he does like her, and she likes him back, I don't think he's going to ask her out. I think he'd just want to keep their friendship where it is, and wouldn't want to ruin a great thing. I told him that's the smart thing to do, I hope he listens. You hear that? I know you're reading this. I HOPE YOUR LISTENING TO ME.
Uhm, comment on my pictures at alezada0920.mpchallenge.com It's a metro photography competition. I gave it my all, handed in my best work IMO. And all I can do now is hope that my work is noticed by the judges. If they don't notice it, no biggie. I know I'm talented, and I won't let a simple competition put me down. I'm just gonna work harder to get even better and take next year by storm.
Okay, that's enough blogging.
School, life, photo, writing, it's so hard to balance you all. But I'm trying.
Until next time !
As you may or may not know, I just turned eighteen almost a month ago. As great as it is, finally being able to buy lottery and being considered legal, it really isn't that much different. I feel the stress more and I think I'm just suppose to bear with it and do what I can. No more complaining, asking for help, because I'm eighteen. I gotta hold my own, because the future only gets harder. I'm glad for those who are there for me, never going to take them for granted. And with that said, I couldn't have asked for better friends or family. These past eighteen years have been nothing but a great learning experience and I'm blessed to have such wonderful people surrounding me. Thanks.
I think I'm more self aware now. I think... I'm going through more than I realize. But it's good to know I have people to count on.
I think...he's catching feelings for her. If he does like her, and she likes him back, I don't think he's going to ask her out. I think he'd just want to keep their friendship where it is, and wouldn't want to ruin a great thing. I told him that's the smart thing to do, I hope he listens. You hear that? I know you're reading this. I HOPE YOUR LISTENING TO ME.
Uhm, comment on my pictures at alezada0920.mpchallenge.com It's a metro photography competition. I gave it my all, handed in my best work IMO. And all I can do now is hope that my work is noticed by the judges. If they don't notice it, no biggie. I know I'm talented, and I won't let a simple competition put me down. I'm just gonna work harder to get even better and take next year by storm.
Okay, that's enough blogging.
School, life, photo, writing, it's so hard to balance you all. But I'm trying.
Until next time !
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