Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
Caught.
She's so fly, she's worldwide but everyone looks down on anyone who hits her more than one time and to anyone who even dares tell anyone "she's mine."
Corrupt minds took away the beauty buried beneath her, because everyone says, "Just get at her."
She's not girlfriend material, they say, just do her and leave that same day.
Anyway, she won't stick around, because a relationship with a prostitute is always bound to come crashing down.
She's been around, she's a gigantic flirt, leaving those foolish enough to catch feelings hurt.
And broken hearts are her specialties, because she knows that everyone thinks she's just a tease.
She seems easy, gets your heart feeling queasy, but tempts you to let your hands run freely.
And I'll be the first to admit, it's really hard trying to stop it, when the green light is lit.
Trying to resist what the community sees her as, and that's just a piece of fine chest, legs, boobs and ass.
She's got class, somewhere stashed, for anyone who will break past and break that "she's just a one timer" mask.
Because underneath that exterior of shit talk and gossip, is a beautiful, insecure lady who just wants to be loved as much as she'll love you.
Corrupt minds took away the beauty buried beneath her, because everyone says, "Just get at her."
She's not girlfriend material, they say, just do her and leave that same day.
Anyway, she won't stick around, because a relationship with a prostitute is always bound to come crashing down.
She's been around, she's a gigantic flirt, leaving those foolish enough to catch feelings hurt.
And broken hearts are her specialties, because she knows that everyone thinks she's just a tease.
She seems easy, gets your heart feeling queasy, but tempts you to let your hands run freely.
And I'll be the first to admit, it's really hard trying to stop it, when the green light is lit.
Trying to resist what the community sees her as, and that's just a piece of fine chest, legs, boobs and ass.
She's got class, somewhere stashed, for anyone who will break past and break that "she's just a one timer" mask.
Because underneath that exterior of shit talk and gossip, is a beautiful, insecure lady who just wants to be loved as much as she'll love you.
Friday, June 26, 2009
New Banner!
So, I spent a good while trying out some new stuff. I was trying to learn how to make a picture look vintage but the tutorial was for Photoshop CS3, and I'm still using CS2. I don't plan to change anytime soon. I suppose I'll leave you with a short summer to do list. Some are specific, some are hella vague, but it'll inform you on how busy I will be.
- Pool Party @ John's
- Gain a flat stomach
- Finish mixtape cover for Vince
- Watch movies!
- Maintain flickr site and blogspots.
- Love Sparks Photoshoot
- Suit Up! Photoshoot
- YCOMM Photoshoot
- YCOMM Art Exhibition
- Sushi with Ana & Anna
- Photoshoot collab with Gillian
- Photoshoot collab with Marlise
- Photoshoot with Michelle and Leila
- Photoshoot with Sandy, Erika & Charlaine (if they're still up for it)
- Photoshoot with Laura
- Photoshoot in Sauga
- Photoshoot in Malton
- Visit Cassandra Nanlal
- Play ball with John, Marcus, Karl, Immanuel, Voydie, Christian and Everest, four on four? :P
- Party with Laura & Zyrelle
- Party in general
- Get my G2
- Clean my room (gotta get on this asap)
- Hopefully find a job
- YFC Conference (hopefully)
- Staying single? LOL, y'all know what this is about. (inside joke)
- Etc, etc.
As you can see, my list is hella long. Summer, I've been looking forward to you since November, don't let me down!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Artist Statement.
Q: Why do you consider yourself an artist?
A: I consider myself an artist. Artists use their talents to get their message across, they have an undeniable passion for their creative outlet, they never let anyone's words break their way of self expression and they never let anyone get in the way of their dreams. So yes, I am an artist.
Q: As an artist, what do you think of other people's work?
A: Self expression, you can't judge that. There's no such thing as a bad artwork or even a written. It's all self expression like I always say. But some art work are just so eye-gasmic, you can't help but say, damn, they're hella great.
Q: What's your biggest inspiration?
A: Everything. I see beauty everywhere. What's not beautiful about our world?
Q: Do you follow that stereotype that creative minds work best at night?
A: Sadly, yes. Sometimes I stay up till the birds start chirping finishing a poem.
Q: What's the your ideal working space?
A: As a photographer, a plain coloured wall, preferably white or beige but eye blinding colours like lime green or purple are just as good, a computer and the love of my life, Iris, my d60.
Q: Why'd you pick the arts?
A: Self expression. You can't speak your mind in math, at least not in the same way. I've got a lot on my mind all the time. Art and english helps me relieve those thoughts.
Q: Did you always want to go into the arts?
A: LOL, no. I planned to be a mathematical genuis or a science nerd. I still am. It's kind of hard not to be when both your parents work in banks in IT Programming with a computer science/engineering major. It also doesn't help that math, science and history were their favourite subjects.
Q: What do you want to be?
A: I want to be perfect. But I figure that's an impossibility. We're humans, so perfect is out of our reach. Oh, you mean life wise? I'd like to be a photographer. But to be honest, I'm still hoping for winning the 20 million jackpot and travelling the world with Iris.
Q: Aside from your professional work, what else do you use photography for?
A: Professional? LOL. Photoshoots with friends for fun, an excuse to chill and break out my d60. Need a new profile display picture? Find me. Haha.
Q: Describe yourself in one word.
A: Human.
Q: What are you wishing for?
A: That I find a couple model and a girlfriend who'll let me take countless pictures of her beauty. LMFAO.
Q: Anything else you want to tell your readers?
A: What readers? Uh, thanks for the support you've given me and look forward to my new pieces coming out soon. Sorry for being a lazy fatass that I am.
A: I consider myself an artist. Artists use their talents to get their message across, they have an undeniable passion for their creative outlet, they never let anyone's words break their way of self expression and they never let anyone get in the way of their dreams. So yes, I am an artist.
Q: As an artist, what do you think of other people's work?
A: Self expression, you can't judge that. There's no such thing as a bad artwork or even a written. It's all self expression like I always say. But some art work are just so eye-gasmic, you can't help but say, damn, they're hella great.
Q: What's your biggest inspiration?
A: Everything. I see beauty everywhere. What's not beautiful about our world?
Q: Do you follow that stereotype that creative minds work best at night?
A: Sadly, yes. Sometimes I stay up till the birds start chirping finishing a poem.
Q: What's the your ideal working space?
A: As a photographer, a plain coloured wall, preferably white or beige but eye blinding colours like lime green or purple are just as good, a computer and the love of my life, Iris, my d60.
Q: Why'd you pick the arts?
A: Self expression. You can't speak your mind in math, at least not in the same way. I've got a lot on my mind all the time. Art and english helps me relieve those thoughts.
Q: Did you always want to go into the arts?
A: LOL, no. I planned to be a mathematical genuis or a science nerd. I still am. It's kind of hard not to be when both your parents work in banks in IT Programming with a computer science/engineering major. It also doesn't help that math, science and history were their favourite subjects.
Q: What do you want to be?
A: I want to be perfect. But I figure that's an impossibility. We're humans, so perfect is out of our reach. Oh, you mean life wise? I'd like to be a photographer. But to be honest, I'm still hoping for winning the 20 million jackpot and travelling the world with Iris.
Q: Aside from your professional work, what else do you use photography for?
A: Professional? LOL. Photoshoots with friends for fun, an excuse to chill and break out my d60. Need a new profile display picture? Find me. Haha.
Q: Describe yourself in one word.
A: Human.
Q: What are you wishing for?
A: That I find a couple model and a girlfriend who'll let me take countless pictures of her beauty. LMFAO.
Q: Anything else you want to tell your readers?
A: What readers? Uh, thanks for the support you've given me and look forward to my new pieces coming out soon. Sorry for being a lazy fatass that I am.
Monday, June 22, 2009
Apology.
I've been hella tired lately, so my mind isn't itself. Sorry, (: I'll try to get a lot of sleep over this summer and will get back on track with projects and whatnots. Until then, hope that I get better asap!
Friday, June 19, 2009
Check it out!
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/text/cyber
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/text/bloodninja
They made me LOL
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/text/bloodninja
They made me LOL
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Smile at me B!
Okay, Karl can confirm the truth to this story.
This chick was roaming around fairview with her boy. I found her physically attractive. She looked at me and I looked back. It was kinda funny. Then later, I see them again walking towards the escalator. I'm upstairs. I'm looking at the chick, and she's arguing with her man. I'm looking at her and she stares back at me. Hard. Then when she got off the escalators, she looked back at me. And I smiled at her. She smiled and looked down. The guy looks at me, and I was still smiling. Then they keep on walking and the girl looks back and smiles back. Should've chopped her. Oh well, maybe I'll see her again. Just maybe.
This chick was roaming around fairview with her boy. I found her physically attractive. She looked at me and I looked back. It was kinda funny. Then later, I see them again walking towards the escalator. I'm upstairs. I'm looking at the chick, and she's arguing with her man. I'm looking at her and she stares back at me. Hard. Then when she got off the escalators, she looked back at me. And I smiled at her. She smiled and looked down. The guy looks at me, and I was still smiling. Then they keep on walking and the girl looks back and smiles back. Should've chopped her. Oh well, maybe I'll see her again. Just maybe.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Keystyles.
Haven't done this in a while.
But thanks to Vince, we're getting back to it.
I close my eyes, and tell me, what do I see?//
A piano on the horizon, playing it's own keys//
A creepy melody, a dead kid recitin the ABCs//
Along with a gravetomb I wonder who he be//
I look closer, it's my own name etched in//
But how can that be, unless I've got a twin//
A copy cat, a dopple ganger that I never knew//
And my eyes quickly open, when a figure says "this is the end for you//
and as an LOL part.
John says:
Blinking rays of radiant stars in darklight night//
Incandescent lights inside virgin minds//
Ding, light bulb of mediocre talented ideas rise//
Initialize Code Five: Lure in children's eyes//
I reply:
John redefines the meaning of a pedophile//
He's not ashamed of it, he does it with a smile//
He'd walk a mile to see a kid bending over//
But don't worry, I'm calling 9-1-1, game over//
LOL.
But thanks to Vince, we're getting back to it.
I close my eyes, and tell me, what do I see?//
A piano on the horizon, playing it's own keys//
A creepy melody, a dead kid recitin the ABCs//
Along with a gravetomb I wonder who he be//
I look closer, it's my own name etched in//
But how can that be, unless I've got a twin//
A copy cat, a dopple ganger that I never knew//
And my eyes quickly open, when a figure says "this is the end for you//
and as an LOL part.
John says:
Blinking rays of radiant stars in darklight night//
Incandescent lights inside virgin minds//
Ding, light bulb of mediocre talented ideas rise//
Initialize Code Five: Lure in children's eyes//
I reply:
John redefines the meaning of a pedophile//
He's not ashamed of it, he does it with a smile//
He'd walk a mile to see a kid bending over//
But don't worry, I'm calling 9-1-1, game over//
LOL.
RYC.
First, I just want to acknowledge the event that I went to this weekend. It was an awesome experience. I am blessed to have experienced and witnessed the first regional youth conference!
"No matter what you do, it won't make me love you less." That's what love's all about.
And on that random note that half of you won't understand... I present to you something sentimental. I've been working on this for a week, and I just wanted to vent out something that's always on my mind. I won't get into details but as all of you already know, my work is more for me. Be happy that I'm sharing some of my most personal and deepest thoughts on this, for your entertainment. And without further ado, here it is.
"No matter what you do, it won't make me love you less." That's what love's all about.
And on that random note that half of you won't understand... I present to you something sentimental. I've been working on this for a week, and I just wanted to vent out something that's always on my mind. I won't get into details but as all of you already know, my work is more for me. Be happy that I'm sharing some of my most personal and deepest thoughts on this, for your entertainment. And without further ado, here it is.
For Her.
This one is for her.
Though I've yet to meet her, see her, be with her,
Please her, smile at her, make a fool out of me
I dedicate this poem for that soon to be special lady.
Maybe she'll read this and fall in love with me
But I don't know a thing about her.
Except she's perfect through my eyes
While I try to sieze her gaze through spontaneous hi's
I wish I knew her already, personally
So instead of this poetry, I'd be talking to her up to quarter past three
Make her smile with flattery that she's never heard of before
But I'm stuck with closed doors, with a lock and inscription that I've never seen before
Like love is another dialect, like a question where my answer is never correct
Just like I'd expect from something so unexplainable
Because this feeling that I want to feel is not visual
This is like an old school young mind love struck poetry written a bit too personally.
And if you take it literally, that's your choice.
But through these written, that helps my mind quicken, i give my creativity a voice.
But I've gone off topic
Back to the love of my life who'll unlock the soul insde me that's well defended and locked.
Back to the woman of my dreams, searching for someone like me to be placed on her team.
Will she like what she sees, or maybe she's someone I've already seen.
Or I already know her, but I've yet to realize.
They say real eyes realize real lies, but what logic does that live by?
Because if real eyes can realize a real lie, then where do I lie?
Because I do nothing but smile and say hi.
Without breaking down the walls that are stacked so high.
These are placed so that I
Can never feel hurt, and if you're asking a question regarding why
I only have one answer for you, and that's because I'm looking out for I.
I can only hope that she's patient and I am someone she sees worth waiting for.
Because I know she's worth waiting for.
This one is for her.
Though I've yet to meet her, see her, be with her,
Please her, smile at her, make a fool out of me
I dedicate this poem for that soon to be special lady.
Maybe she'll read this and fall in love with me
But I don't know a thing about her.
Except she's perfect through my eyes
While I try to sieze her gaze through spontaneous hi's
I wish I knew her already, personally
So instead of this poetry, I'd be talking to her up to quarter past three
Make her smile with flattery that she's never heard of before
But I'm stuck with closed doors, with a lock and inscription that I've never seen before
Like love is another dialect, like a question where my answer is never correct
Just like I'd expect from something so unexplainable
Because this feeling that I want to feel is not visual
This is like an old school young mind love struck poetry written a bit too personally.
And if you take it literally, that's your choice.
But through these written, that helps my mind quicken, i give my creativity a voice.
But I've gone off topic
Back to the love of my life who'll unlock the soul insde me that's well defended and locked.
Back to the woman of my dreams, searching for someone like me to be placed on her team.
Will she like what she sees, or maybe she's someone I've already seen.
Or I already know her, but I've yet to realize.
They say real eyes realize real lies, but what logic does that live by?
Because if real eyes can realize a real lie, then where do I lie?
Because I do nothing but smile and say hi.
Without breaking down the walls that are stacked so high.
These are placed so that I
Can never feel hurt, and if you're asking a question regarding why
I only have one answer for you, and that's because I'm looking out for I.
I can only hope that she's patient and I am someone she sees worth waiting for.
Because I know she's worth waiting for.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Check.
Another youtube rapper who's got more promise than half the mainstream rappers in the business. Artists like him are literally reviving hiphop.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Huh.
I think this one is more me.
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.
Friday, June 12, 2009
ROFL
OMFGit'sMarcus! .I'm sorry...but NoCanDo says (1:50 AM):
oh God, I think I am/will be clingy
[One of life's mysteries, solved.]
And an insight to what the fam at Egotistic Productions talk about.
nik; says (1:54 AM):
thats
common sense
sorry marcus
ur a hopeless romantic
OMFGit'sMarcus! .I'm sorry...but NoCanDo says (1:54 AM):
I hate it
nik; says (1:55 AM):
i enbisioin
OMFGit'sMarcus! .I'm sorry...but NoCanDo says (1:55 AM):
I hate her
I hate girls
nik; says (1:55 AM):
a clingy future
AHA
OMFGit'sMarcus! .I'm sorry...but NoCanDo says (1:55 AM):
I'm going gay
fuck it
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:55 AM):
^good job karl, you got him into that gay swirl again.
nik; says (1:55 AM):
and u hate that u love her so
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:55 AM):
and, it could go both ways, like his sexuality.
OMFGit'sMarcus! .I'm sorry...but NoCanDo says (1:55 AM):
I don't love her
I love myself...who bears no resemblance to her
I love myself because I have a penis
I love penis
nik; says (1:56 AM):
...
that last part
came out wrong
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:56 AM):
and yet it's going on my blogspot.
nik; says (1:56 AM):
get it?
LOOOOOOOOOL
OMFGit'sMarcus! .I'm sorry...but NoCanDo says (1:56 AM):
I mean it all
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:57 AM):
i call ducktales
OMFGit'sMarcus! .I'm sorry...but NoCanDo says (1:57 AM):
okay fine
but I meant everything before the turning gay part
oh God, I think I am/will be clingy
[One of life's mysteries, solved.]
And an insight to what the fam at Egotistic Productions talk about.
nik; says (1:54 AM):
thats
common sense
sorry marcus
ur a hopeless romantic
OMFGit'sMarcus! .I'm sorry...but NoCanDo says (1:54 AM):
I hate it
nik; says (1:55 AM):
i enbisioin
OMFGit'sMarcus! .I'm sorry...but NoCanDo says (1:55 AM):
I hate her
I hate girls
nik; says (1:55 AM):
a clingy future
AHA
OMFGit'sMarcus! .I'm sorry...but NoCanDo says (1:55 AM):
I'm going gay
fuck it
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:55 AM):
^good job karl, you got him into that gay swirl again.
nik; says (1:55 AM):
and u hate that u love her so
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:55 AM):
and, it could go both ways, like his sexuality.
OMFGit'sMarcus! .I'm sorry...but NoCanDo says (1:55 AM):
I don't love her
I love myself...who bears no resemblance to her
I love myself because I have a penis
I love penis
nik; says (1:56 AM):
...
that last part
came out wrong
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:56 AM):
and yet it's going on my blogspot.
nik; says (1:56 AM):
get it?
LOOOOOOOOOL
OMFGit'sMarcus! .I'm sorry...but NoCanDo says (1:56 AM):
I mean it all
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:57 AM):
i call ducktales
OMFGit'sMarcus! .I'm sorry...but NoCanDo says (1:57 AM):
okay fine
but I meant everything before the turning gay part
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Kind Words.
There are things I will never understand
Why I do things because I can and I never do things I can't
Why my life seems so bland to me
But to others, as eventful as there are sands in the sea.
Why I will never be good enough though they say i do them proud
Why I always feel like I have no way out.
I'll never see beauty in its purest form
I'll never know the true purpose of why I was born
I'll never understand why I am me and how the universe really works
Why I was born to be nice and why evil always lurks
I'll never comprehend why I was given the life I wake to everyday
Why i was given with the blessing to know just what to say
Why, no matter what happens, I still smile
Why in the end, I'm still hoping it'll be worthwhile
I'm becoming cold with the oxygen I inhale
But I walk on, so that no one can see that my arteries are becoming frail
I'm turning pale, lifeless, bitter and cynical
And my condition has become more than critical
Suck it up pal, life's never fair
Life's filled with misfortune, we've all had our share
It's unfair that there's too little people like you around
It's people like you who keep some of us around.
Everyday is like pulling an all nighter right before your final test
No one is ever prepared, live life to your very best
Because life's all about withstanding the hardship life sends
And it makes life easier when you're sincerely there for your friends
Why I do things because I can and I never do things I can't
Why my life seems so bland to me
But to others, as eventful as there are sands in the sea.
Why I will never be good enough though they say i do them proud
Why I always feel like I have no way out.
I'll never see beauty in its purest form
I'll never know the true purpose of why I was born
I'll never understand why I am me and how the universe really works
Why I was born to be nice and why evil always lurks
I'll never comprehend why I was given the life I wake to everyday
Why i was given with the blessing to know just what to say
Why, no matter what happens, I still smile
Why in the end, I'm still hoping it'll be worthwhile
I'm becoming cold with the oxygen I inhale
But I walk on, so that no one can see that my arteries are becoming frail
I'm turning pale, lifeless, bitter and cynical
And my condition has become more than critical
Suck it up pal, life's never fair
Life's filled with misfortune, we've all had our share
It's unfair that there's too little people like you around
It's people like you who keep some of us around.
Everyday is like pulling an all nighter right before your final test
No one is ever prepared, live life to your very best
Because life's all about withstanding the hardship life sends
And it makes life easier when you're sincerely there for your friends
Too Funny.
[01:56] iYukaxVikix3: ur too cute
[01:56] iYukaxVikix3: which means
[01:56] iYukaxVikix3: a whole buncha competition
That's such a lie.
I am socially inept.
I am Marcus.
<4
[01:56] iYukaxVikix3: which means
[01:56] iYukaxVikix3: a whole buncha competition
That's such a lie.
I am socially inept.
I am Marcus.
<4
Huh.
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
Travis McCoy Poetry.
Makes me wanna write again.
-
Bartender!
"Yeah I hear your wise ass, give me a minute."
I'm trying to get this round over here.
"What do you think I'm just working for you here?"
Actually, will you, will you send a drink, to the lady at the end of the bar? Yeah that one right there.
"Here you are man."
Yeah, yeah. It's on me. Tell her it's from Travie.
"It's from this guy over here."
From the second she shimmied in
I was intrigued by her essence
And my first instincts to make sure that my presence was felt
Simple and plain
I'm probably jumping the train
But all I could see was my name engraved on her belt
Hit the pause button
Damn!
I don't even know this girl
And I'm already practicing my sweet-nothins
But that's a classic trait of a soft-spoken, heart-broken, fellow like my self best believe (pussy)
I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve
But that night the Jagermeister had my sleeves rolled up
Wait a minute, hold up
I think she caught me grillin' now I'm spillin' my drink (don't look don't look)
I knew our feelings were in sync so now she gave me the wink
The only problem is, I'm not your ordinary, average Romeo
A Cyrano de Bergerac (shut the fuck up)
In fact, I remember back in fifth grade
I tried to read the book of love, but sadly
The introduction didn't grab me
So I left it on the shelf and kept moving
Assuming that this planet rotates
I'll just procrastinate until the day I bump into my soulmate
Who would've thunk I would be pissy ass drunk when time came for collision
So I made the decision to just keep my composure (cool cool)
Until she started getting closer
And then I felt this weird feeling underneath my left shoulder, and then I
Slipped, tripped, busted my lip and fell in love
The minute that she stepped in the door
The type of girl I'd have to make a couple mix tapes for
To me she equaled MC squared and everything else was mathematics
I never took the time to practice
Ok, continued
What's next upon the menu?
Hmm, maybe I should crack a joke
Attack and ask her if she smokes
Cause I can't seem to find my matches
And that could break the ice but
I'm a bad actress with three lighters I acquired the previous night
And there I was do or die
She was approximately five feet away from my frame
So I decided to take a stride, swallow my pride, tellin' her my name like
Hello miss, my name is Travis
Just a ordinary cat, I'm into art and fuzzy rabbits, kinda smart with a big heart, you can have it
See you find that funny
I'd love to buy you a drink but I got bent and spent my money
But would you kindly accept a raincheck
Perhaps some deep chit chat
She didn't think twice, nodded her head and said "I'm with that"
By the way do you have some matches?
She's like, "no, but there's a lighter right in front of you"
And now we both giggling
This girl's so crazy, got my gullet jiggling
Fiddling with my feelings like an out of tune piano
Like I'm on ritalin
The way she's got my undivided attention dismissin' any thoughts of lettin' this one get away
The bombs been detonated
I'm just waitin' for an explosion, I was just waitin' on 2nd and it was time for me to close in on 3rd
With blurred vision and in, precisely placed slurred words we started kissin'
Man listen, it was like a scene from a very bad B movie with a very low budget
But fuck it, I was drunk and I admit I loved it
Every last second, I couldn't kill that thought of us butt ass naked
Tele' surfin' with the fan on, chattin' about the session and, slowly gettin' into some closet skeleton confessions
That's when, she made a offer that I couldn't refuse
And chills went up and down my legs like Samoan tattoos
She said she had a pad that wasn't too far away, and said she'd love if I stayed 'til the following day
So it was time to exit stage left, I made my rounds, gave my pounds and hugs, gathered my thoughts and took a deep breath
And now we're walkin' to the door but, right before we stepped outside she bought me one more
And now I'm feelin' it, I had my had down my pocket but she's stealing it,
with our fingers in a locket and as we're walkin' down Exchange Street, with
our hearts pitter pattering to the same beat
And then she popped the question like "Trav, you evah been in love?" I'm like "pshhh not that I recall"
Well there was one situation, but I didn't have the patience, or the balls to say it and everytime I tried I just digitally delayed it
And it sounded like something blah blah blah blah, man my speach impetement left my heart vacant without a single resident
The first tenant got evicted the second she settled in, I seen her the other day riding my bike and kept peddlin'
If it wasn't for meddlin' kids would love even exist nope, if it wasn't for alcohol would I even be saying this nope
She probably took offense, I probably started gettin' sober 'cause she started gettin' ugly and I think probably told her
Then my feet got heavy, I started drippin' sweat, knew I was gettin' into something I'd probably regret
Right when I lit the cigarette I caught a case of the spins, and started wishin' I was still at the bar with my friends
And then it happened, I fell flat on my face
When I awoke I found I was in a very strange place
I must've got my wish granted 'cause I was butt ass naked, but the only downside was that the room was very vacant
Except next to the bed there was this note on the dresser, while I'm tryin' to deal with this hangover head pressure
With a smile I grabbed the note, lit a smoke and sat back, "Dear whoever, lose my number P.S. the sex was wack"
-
Bartender!
"Yeah I hear your wise ass, give me a minute."
I'm trying to get this round over here.
"What do you think I'm just working for you here?"
Actually, will you, will you send a drink, to the lady at the end of the bar? Yeah that one right there.
"Here you are man."
Yeah, yeah. It's on me. Tell her it's from Travie.
"It's from this guy over here."
From the second she shimmied in
I was intrigued by her essence
And my first instincts to make sure that my presence was felt
Simple and plain
I'm probably jumping the train
But all I could see was my name engraved on her belt
Hit the pause button
Damn!
I don't even know this girl
And I'm already practicing my sweet-nothins
But that's a classic trait of a soft-spoken, heart-broken, fellow like my self best believe (pussy)
I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve
But that night the Jagermeister had my sleeves rolled up
Wait a minute, hold up
I think she caught me grillin' now I'm spillin' my drink (don't look don't look)
I knew our feelings were in sync so now she gave me the wink
The only problem is, I'm not your ordinary, average Romeo
A Cyrano de Bergerac (shut the fuck up)
In fact, I remember back in fifth grade
I tried to read the book of love, but sadly
The introduction didn't grab me
So I left it on the shelf and kept moving
Assuming that this planet rotates
I'll just procrastinate until the day I bump into my soulmate
Who would've thunk I would be pissy ass drunk when time came for collision
So I made the decision to just keep my composure (cool cool)
Until she started getting closer
And then I felt this weird feeling underneath my left shoulder, and then I
Slipped, tripped, busted my lip and fell in love
The minute that she stepped in the door
The type of girl I'd have to make a couple mix tapes for
To me she equaled MC squared and everything else was mathematics
I never took the time to practice
Ok, continued
What's next upon the menu?
Hmm, maybe I should crack a joke
Attack and ask her if she smokes
Cause I can't seem to find my matches
And that could break the ice but
I'm a bad actress with three lighters I acquired the previous night
And there I was do or die
She was approximately five feet away from my frame
So I decided to take a stride, swallow my pride, tellin' her my name like
Hello miss, my name is Travis
Just a ordinary cat, I'm into art and fuzzy rabbits, kinda smart with a big heart, you can have it
See you find that funny
I'd love to buy you a drink but I got bent and spent my money
But would you kindly accept a raincheck
Perhaps some deep chit chat
She didn't think twice, nodded her head and said "I'm with that"
By the way do you have some matches?
She's like, "no, but there's a lighter right in front of you"
And now we both giggling
This girl's so crazy, got my gullet jiggling
Fiddling with my feelings like an out of tune piano
Like I'm on ritalin
The way she's got my undivided attention dismissin' any thoughts of lettin' this one get away
The bombs been detonated
I'm just waitin' for an explosion, I was just waitin' on 2nd and it was time for me to close in on 3rd
With blurred vision and in, precisely placed slurred words we started kissin'
Man listen, it was like a scene from a very bad B movie with a very low budget
But fuck it, I was drunk and I admit I loved it
Every last second, I couldn't kill that thought of us butt ass naked
Tele' surfin' with the fan on, chattin' about the session and, slowly gettin' into some closet skeleton confessions
That's when, she made a offer that I couldn't refuse
And chills went up and down my legs like Samoan tattoos
She said she had a pad that wasn't too far away, and said she'd love if I stayed 'til the following day
So it was time to exit stage left, I made my rounds, gave my pounds and hugs, gathered my thoughts and took a deep breath
And now we're walkin' to the door but, right before we stepped outside she bought me one more
And now I'm feelin' it, I had my had down my pocket but she's stealing it,
with our fingers in a locket and as we're walkin' down Exchange Street, with
our hearts pitter pattering to the same beat
And then she popped the question like "Trav, you evah been in love?" I'm like "pshhh not that I recall"
Well there was one situation, but I didn't have the patience, or the balls to say it and everytime I tried I just digitally delayed it
And it sounded like something blah blah blah blah, man my speach impetement left my heart vacant without a single resident
The first tenant got evicted the second she settled in, I seen her the other day riding my bike and kept peddlin'
If it wasn't for meddlin' kids would love even exist nope, if it wasn't for alcohol would I even be saying this nope
She probably took offense, I probably started gettin' sober 'cause she started gettin' ugly and I think probably told her
Then my feet got heavy, I started drippin' sweat, knew I was gettin' into something I'd probably regret
Right when I lit the cigarette I caught a case of the spins, and started wishin' I was still at the bar with my friends
And then it happened, I fell flat on my face
When I awoke I found I was in a very strange place
I must've got my wish granted 'cause I was butt ass naked, but the only downside was that the room was very vacant
Except next to the bed there was this note on the dresser, while I'm tryin' to deal with this hangover head pressure
With a smile I grabbed the note, lit a smoke and sat back, "Dear whoever, lose my number P.S. the sex was wack"
Okay.
So I realized that everytime I'm sprung, I listen to Gym Class Heroes' "As Cruel As School Children."
I think I should consider placing them back on my iPod.
Let's let it go.
I think I should consider placing them back on my iPod.
Let's let it go.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Smile.
I honestly just want to smile again. I never knew feeling human was so cotdamn hard.
--------------
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:10 AM):
trying to.
but shit b,
i hate bitches
LOL
rae says (1:10 AM):
LOL
what u mean
LOL
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:11 AM):
okay lemme rephrase
i'm never going to believe anything a drunk tells me
rae says (1:11 AM):
LMFAO
LMFAO
LMFAO
what did she tell u
hahaha
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:13 AM):
things that i feel stupid for believing
http://illicitdesire.blogspot.com/2009/06/blank.html
rae says (1:15 AM):
...
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:18 AM):
highlight the whole thing b.
rae says (1:18 AM):
ohhhhh
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:18 AM):
press CTRL A
rae says (1:18 AM):
...
and who is that chick?
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:20 AM):
the drunk that told me things
rae says (1:20 AM):
awwww
rae says (1:21 AM):
thats bad yo
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:21 AM):
i'm pissed at myself about it
rae says (1:21 AM):
yea u should me
be *
rae says (1:22 AM):
damnn
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:23 AM):
^ tahnks for making me feel better
rae says (1:23 AM):
LOL
naw it was a reality check
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:23 AM):
i know
but it's not doing anything
rae says (1:24 AM):
aw
are u friends with her ?
I need someone who can keep up with me. I want someone agressive, who pushes me to my breaking point where I just want to scream. Someone who will tell me that I'm not always right and I should apologize for the things I do wrong. I need someone who's going to set me straight because no one has ever cared enough about me to try. <#33
.lєzαdα,αngelo; stfu. says (1:25 AM):
that's deep.
and true
rae says (1:26 AM):
i know
.lєzαdα,αngelo; stfu. says (1:27 AM):
you nkow what i hate?
rae says (1:27 AM):
?
.lєzαdα,αngelo; stfu. says (1:27 AM):
i dont' mean to sound hella concieted
rae says (1:27 AM):
..
.lєzαdα,αngelo; stfu. says (1:27 AM):
but the fact that i know i'm a good guy, and i can't freakin find a girl out there wroth my time.
.lєzαdα,αngelo; stfu. says (1:28 AM):
people always tell me
rae says (1:28 AM):
aw
.lєzαdα,αngelo; stfu. says (1:28 AM):
you're a nice guy
you're a good person.
where does that get me
falling for the wrong chicks, getting involve with chicks that someone like me don't belong with.
and why?
cuz i love to flirt.
cuz i love being needed
because i feel purposeless if i can't make SOMEONE smile.
rae says (1:29 AM):
well
nothing's wrong with that.
i mean
i dont know what to say. but what i think is that, u shouldn't worry that u cant find the right girl thats worth ur time and stuff.
rae says (1:30 AM):
i know u pretty well. you ARE a good guy. and i know ur alwasy down for whatever
and yeah, you always make people smile even though u cant make urself happy
you see. there are always going to be those people who wont give two fucks about you and just tease you and play along because theyre bored and "love to flirt" as much as u do.
rae says (1:31 AM):
but there's nothing u can do about it. i mean, i dont wanna brag. but just wait.
i mean, i know it gets lonely at times
at times u need the love, i know
but dont u find it better to stay and wait instead of dating some chick that doesnt really care? or falling for a girl, she says shes into you ,but really she isn't. so ur on that "one way love thing"
rae says (1:32 AM):
you're an awesome guy. honestly, i would totally date you and be down for you.
i would love to be your girlfriend, honestly. but its kind of hard doing that whole long distance relationship thing especially if i havent met u face to face yet.
rae says (1:33 AM):
i can probably consider you as one of my bestfriends, but there's always going to be that" its only internet" but its amazing how you've proved yourself more than how people in cgy are to me
we're probably not bf and gfs
and i dont think u need one now.
you just want love
everyone wants love, i want love
but its hard to actually find it
when ur eally want it
rae says (1:34 AM):
so just take ur time. it gets lonely at times, but just let it go. it'll come to you by surprise. and i know uve heard that 684896204 times already and u probably dont wanna hear it
but its the truth. there's nthing u can do if u havent "found the right" girl. you will ,and i know you will. im SURE you will.
rae says (1:35 AM):
so dont be so bumbed that u fell for what that chick said
im like that too
when u flirt with me, i miss being taken
i miss having someone call me during the day to ask me what im doing
or holding m
or even talking to me 24/7
i miss having someone who makes me smile
and treats me out
rae says (1:36 AM):
dont worry. you'll be fine. its not only you feeling like this,
there are 8925029 people too. so dont worry
you'll be fine.
--------------
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:10 AM):
trying to.
but shit b,
i hate bitches
LOL
rae says (1:10 AM):
LOL
what u mean
LOL
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:11 AM):
okay lemme rephrase
i'm never going to believe anything a drunk tells me
rae says (1:11 AM):
LMFAO
LMFAO
LMFAO
what did she tell u
hahaha
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:13 AM):
things that i feel stupid for believing
http://illicitdesire.blogspot.com/2009/06/blank.html
rae says (1:15 AM):
...
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:18 AM):
highlight the whole thing b.
rae says (1:18 AM):
ohhhhh
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:18 AM):
press CTRL A
rae says (1:18 AM):
...
and who is that chick?
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:20 AM):
the drunk that told me things
rae says (1:20 AM):
awwww
rae says (1:21 AM):
thats bad yo
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:21 AM):
i'm pissed at myself about it
rae says (1:21 AM):
yea u should me
be *
rae says (1:22 AM):
damnn
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:23 AM):
^ tahnks for making me feel better
rae says (1:23 AM):
LOL
naw it was a reality check
.lєzαdα,αngelo; says (1:23 AM):
i know
but it's not doing anything
rae says (1:24 AM):
aw
are u friends with her ?
I need someone who can keep up with me. I want someone agressive, who pushes me to my breaking point where I just want to scream. Someone who will tell me that I'm not always right and I should apologize for the things I do wrong. I need someone who's going to set me straight because no one has ever cared enough about me to try. <#33
.lєzαdα,αngelo; stfu. says (1:25 AM):
that's deep.
and true
rae says (1:26 AM):
i know
.lєzαdα,αngelo; stfu. says (1:27 AM):
you nkow what i hate?
rae says (1:27 AM):
?
.lєzαdα,αngelo; stfu. says (1:27 AM):
i dont' mean to sound hella concieted
rae says (1:27 AM):
..
.lєzαdα,αngelo; stfu. says (1:27 AM):
but the fact that i know i'm a good guy, and i can't freakin find a girl out there wroth my time.
.lєzαdα,αngelo; stfu. says (1:28 AM):
people always tell me
rae says (1:28 AM):
aw
.lєzαdα,αngelo; stfu. says (1:28 AM):
you're a nice guy
you're a good person.
where does that get me
falling for the wrong chicks, getting involve with chicks that someone like me don't belong with.
and why?
cuz i love to flirt.
cuz i love being needed
because i feel purposeless if i can't make SOMEONE smile.
rae says (1:29 AM):
well
nothing's wrong with that.
i mean
i dont know what to say. but what i think is that, u shouldn't worry that u cant find the right girl thats worth ur time and stuff.
rae says (1:30 AM):
i know u pretty well. you ARE a good guy. and i know ur alwasy down for whatever
and yeah, you always make people smile even though u cant make urself happy
you see. there are always going to be those people who wont give two fucks about you and just tease you and play along because theyre bored and "love to flirt" as much as u do.
rae says (1:31 AM):
but there's nothing u can do about it. i mean, i dont wanna brag. but just wait.
i mean, i know it gets lonely at times
at times u need the love, i know
but dont u find it better to stay and wait instead of dating some chick that doesnt really care? or falling for a girl, she says shes into you ,but really she isn't. so ur on that "one way love thing"
rae says (1:32 AM):
you're an awesome guy. honestly, i would totally date you and be down for you.
i would love to be your girlfriend, honestly. but its kind of hard doing that whole long distance relationship thing especially if i havent met u face to face yet.
rae says (1:33 AM):
i can probably consider you as one of my bestfriends, but there's always going to be that" its only internet" but its amazing how you've proved yourself more than how people in cgy are to me
we're probably not bf and gfs
and i dont think u need one now.
you just want love
everyone wants love, i want love
but its hard to actually find it
when ur eally want it
rae says (1:34 AM):
so just take ur time. it gets lonely at times, but just let it go. it'll come to you by surprise. and i know uve heard that 684896204 times already and u probably dont wanna hear it
but its the truth. there's nthing u can do if u havent "found the right" girl. you will ,and i know you will. im SURE you will.
rae says (1:35 AM):
so dont be so bumbed that u fell for what that chick said
im like that too
when u flirt with me, i miss being taken
i miss having someone call me during the day to ask me what im doing
or holding m
or even talking to me 24/7
i miss having someone who makes me smile
and treats me out
rae says (1:36 AM):
dont worry. you'll be fine. its not only you feeling like this,
there are 8925029 people too. so dont worry
you'll be fine.
Blank.
I'm trying to do something productive. But I keep drawing a blank.
Sadly, all I want right now is you.
I guess I'm sprung.
Sadly, all I want right now is you.
I guess I'm sprung.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Friday, June 5, 2009
Regret?
I have none.Or so I tell myself.But she made me realize,Last night I admitted,I have one.You.Letting you go was the worst thing I could've done. And maybe that's why I've been feeling like this lately. I can only say sorry so many times. I think last night, my talk with Alyssa has made me realize a lot of things. That the way I treat women is a contradiction to how many I've had. That, maybe I am being taken advantage of. That I deserve something better. And that you we're one of the few that stuck by me when I was falling apart. I'm sorry I took you for granted. I can only hope that you're true to your words and we'll always be friends. Because I do miss you, more than I'd like to admit. And I did love you, can't you just reply once?
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Monday, June 1, 2009
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