I am Tired.

I am tired.
Of open ended relationships going nowhere.
Chasing a girl to simply see if she's the right one.
Hiding my past because I know it can't be undone.
I am tired.
Of being the ventilation system that helps air out your life.
Placing a girl before my priorites because I am her friend.
Doing so much for an individual because my time, I always lend.
I am tired.
Of trying to please every single person in the world.
Making sure that my life fits accordingly with their plans.
Speaking out my mind but they can never understand.
I am tired.
Of repeating myself over and over to a crowd not even listening.
Trying to improve on myself as a human being in general
Attempting to make life worth it, before my final burial.
I am tired.
I am tired.
Of living my life so cautiously, every step matters now.
Life has a cruel sense of humour and I am his test subject.
And I fear that being happy is something that I will never perfect.
Of hearing the break up stories every other month.
Bending over backwards to try and find the common ground.
Because my life is on a train with no conducter around.
I am tired.
Of listening to people talk about how my life is worthless.
Knowing that other people are out nurturing their education.
While I am still here, sitting down, waiting at a station.
I am tired.
Of seeing my friends grow up, while I am left behind.
Envying the happiness of those who were once mine.
While I am still here, waiting patiently in line.
I am tired.
Of getting addicted to seeing the smile of those around me.
Watching my life slip right through these hands God provided.
While I am just watching as my dreams and reality colided.
I am tired.
Of having to rely on the adrenaline I feel around friends.
Building up anger as I wait by the sidelines while life goes on.
While I am just dreaming, hoping that this nightmare moves on.
I am tired.
Let me sleep.