Confused.

what i want is something so surreal
So unthinkable
I don't think it's even possible for me to find it in this lifetime.
What i yearn for is something possible,
And yet it feels like it's out of my reach.
What i want is perfection
But how do i find perfection when I myself am not perfect?
I am not satisfied with my best efforts
But I give up oh so easily.
What is one to do?
I'm so confused.